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I have a "forgot a family member's birthday emergency". I'm not sure if my dad's birthday was on 7th or today. I mentioned something about geting him a present and he got all melty. So it might have been today? I'm not good at reading body language. Not to be melodramatic but, it makes me feel like a bad daughter and I don't want to ask my brother because he will think I'm an inconsiderate ass that doesn't know when her dad's birthday is. Fuck, I really don't see a good way out of it. Grrrrr

Thinking of getting a 25 gallon aquarium in addition to the 60 gallon I already have. Used but in good condition. The only problem that i see with that is how to position my future furniture in the appartment for both aquariumss to be visible. I'm not very decoration savy.

Finaly had a chance go get out of the city for a couple of days. Went up to Whistler on Sunday night and coming back home around noon tomorrow. There was a lot of movie watching, going out with moderatelly rich and succesfull middle aged folk. $300 dinner for 5? Well I guess I'm not that sophisticated. My parents usually stick moderatelly priced asian food. Regardless it was good time all around. I got to walk around the willage, but we had to retreat back into the house within a short walk as the clouds have finally made up their mind and decided to rain. I woke up this morning to find myself congested with a sore throat. Now my body has finally desided to get on with being sick. I was on the brink of it for a few days now. Lots of lemon tea and naps seem to help. I'm not that sick, just anoying tierdness. Well, I get to go home tomorrow to my appartment and my cat. Thinking about Tigger, I hope he's ok without me :(

Walked through the pouring rain today. A nice 15 minute walk to my parents place. Walking along the road, over the bridge with beautiful scenery. I haven't felt soo alive in a long time. It felt soo good to see the rain drip from my eyes when a blinked. There was no dry spot left on my body and the more it rained the happier I felt. The look of it hiting the pavement, the leaves on the trees and the grass bending beneth the weight. There were just soo many pictures waiting for a camera to take them. I kept on smiling the whole way. There really no words to describe it, but real and alive would come close. I don't think my grandmother shared my feelings.

I don't know how many mice and small rats my mom's cat Timyr brought to the house (at 2:00 AM usually, acoumpanied by the wierdestt purring noises). So the new kitten Tina has taken upon herself to be a QA. Making sure that all me mice are definatelly dead. I swear Timyr bring home half dead mice just for her to play with. Maybe that's his evil plan. Both cats are nuts. I like Tigger, he is soo dosile. No mouse catching for him.

Learning sign language is proving to be really fun, but difficult.
The only problem is that some of the signs from the internet are different that those in the book. Also it's been really hard to disepher finger spelling when I see it on youtube. One thing though, watching sign language 'songs' I can recognize some signs :) So I know I'm getting somewhere. I'm just waiting to get to the "medical signs"part in the book. Maybe I will be able to get around if need be at work.

My poor cat Tigger.I had a dream that I was a pirate, being attacked by some people whose fangs were poisones. So I tried to grab for their throats to try to choke them to death. And then I wake up with sharp fangs sinking into my skin. Tigger was sleeping right beside me and apparently I grabed him fairly hard around the middle. He wasn't too happy but all was forgoten after some cat treats.

My grandmother flown in on Tuesday evening. I didn't really have any expectations as I haven't seen her in 10 years. It went very well, we got to spend some time together, swam in the pool (she was afraid to go to the deep end), baked banana bread and talked alot. She is very much like an ethnic grandmother who tries to feed you all the time, but in a good way, not like my other one :) And plus no religious talk. I'm spending a couple of days over at my parents place to help her adgust. I'm starting to get worried about my long skinny cat being all by himself at home in a hot hot appartment. I'm going home tomorrow morning and planing to take him out for a walk (if it's a little cooler outside). Ohhh yeah and my fish.....

Pride was fun, I was a little nervous but it was good. I learned a leson that walking in the heat for extended period of time without eating dinner the previous night and a couple of tim bits in the morning is not a good idea. Not to mention I was disoriented without my glassess. Thank god for WATER, Not to complain or anything but leson learned. Good thing for a friendly chocolate bar and some sweet drink. I find it really hard to eat when it's hot outside and plus not having any disposable food on hand due to the breakage of fridge last week. Blah.
It's hard to get myself to eat more food. Candy or nothing not a great combination. I get lots of good food at my parents house but still need to go shoping. Anyways after pride met up with V. and some of her friends and got to blow crazy amount of bubbles that were met with mixed results by the people at whom the bubbles were blown in to. Reminded me of being eight, but we didn't have a great bubble blowing solution in Ukraine. It turned out to be a very good day had a great time hanging out with kinky friends and V. afterwards.
I REALLY WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH, but when it's cooler then this. I boiled outside.

I was supposed to have a 1.45 min appointment with my dentist, and he desided to make me the last case of the day in case he needed more time. I should have taken it as it's going to be longer then that, but I guess I was too naive. So 3.5 hours later I'm an owner of 6 brand new fillings and a crown. Go me? It took him three times to numb me and it still hurt for the last two. It's aching right now, I don't know how I'm supposed to eat....to chew on the side with a crown or the one with 6 fillings? Now my fridge is making a high pitched noise that is very much alike to a noise of a dril at the dentists. Bah! A good thing, all my fillings are finally done! No more dental work for the next while :)
Oh yeah, and ofcource my lip got frozen and reseaved a nice bite when I was talking on the phone.

So I was hunting for a piece of clay for the past two weeks. I found some molding clay at an arts shop. OK great! It even comes in purple. Score. I get to my parents place and open the package (I was that exited, I have not played with clay since I was 8). Ok everything is good, after about half an hour and various naughty sculptures later I'm done. So my hands are slightly purple from the clay. I'm thinking not a big deal, easy to wash off. How wrong I was. I'm trying to wash my hands in cold water (I don't know why) and that just hardened the clay of my palms. Ok, I turn on hot water now, trying not to boil my hands. Lots and lots of soap and some of it is actually starting to come off great, I'm trying to scrape it all off and then I look at the sink. Ok great, now there are blotches of purple at the bottom of the sink. It stuck to it like cement, so more scrubing of the sink. Ten minutes later I got most of the clay and felt like some of the skin as well. Ok, so what now? I get a brilliant thought to wrap it in cling wrap and play with it some more. Thinking (this time andyways). And it worked, so more making of naughty sculptures. My hands remain clean, but I don't get the texture of the clay. I know there got to be an easier way to clean hands after making naughty sculptures with clay :)

Now it's past five in the morning and I have not had any sleep since about 10am yesterday. Now, is it insomnia or a wierd sleep pattern that developed? The only place that I can fall asleep at a resonable hour (before 12) is M&A's place. Wierd I know. When at home the earliest that I go to sleep is at 3:00. My parents place is worse. I don't even need a book or TV I am awake, staring into space, falling asleep for short periods of time. Does it have to do with feeling secure? or what ever else who knows. There got to be some rational explanation. I've never had problems sleeping before.It's getting light outside maybe I will sit on my balcony with a cup of tea and read some more. Maybe fresh air will stimulate my desire to go to bed. The little blue pills are giving me sidelong glances. "Take me, Take me" I hate to take the little evil zopiclone pills. I need to do something. And suprisingly enough my lazy ass cat is apparently awake the whole night, keeping me company. I guess that's the reason that most of the food disapears at night and he is never awake during the day. I hope it's sunny out, I'll take him for a walk.